Especially For You

To you,my dear friend...

well,when i read your blog,
I nearly burst into tears...
but i did not...
as i have learn t not to shed tears easily...
I am here to tell you that CONGRATULATION
You have become my best friend...
maybe you do not ever realize ...
but i am now here to tell you the truth...


I have nothing to comment about except for this...
It is not easy to have a true best friend that understands you well...
to seek for a truly best friend is like searching for precious pearl in the sea...
You really have to put a lot of effort in order to get the expensive pearl...
You really have to put your best foot forward...
You really have to work hard for it...
But,
sometimes you are just too tired to continue to search for the pearl...
because you find that searching for chorals is more meaningful that pearls...
You are really fed up with that,
You do not want to think about it anymore...
You just want to let your hair down sometimes...
You are just too tired for that...
You really need to have a break...

Sometimes,when friendship has come to an end...
it is undeniable...
it happens with a sudden when you are not prepared for it...
so,what for if you keep wasting time on such useless stuff?
why not you just start searching for another best friend
when you have finally discovered that they are not your true friends...
what for you need to have them back as you did not even have them with you before?
What for?

Sometimes,outsiders would not understand the true situation beneath it...
Well,i am just too tired for it...
having this kind of friendship is tiring and suffering...
maybe i really do not belong to the gang...from the very beginning...
I was just too naive that time...
This is the time when i actually learn to grow up...

Yes,i admit i am a clown far from beginning...
i am fake and bad...
i do not have the true inner me while spending the time with all of you...
i do not know why...
I am the one with endless evil and darkness...